Week 5 – I didn’t know I was a stress eater!

J240 - Ep7 - Week 5 Title Image

18th – 24th Jan 2021

Yes it is true. Three weeks into Jan 2021 and I am starting to wobble a little. By Friday I just had lost any real focus I had. It was a bit of shit day all round.

I couldn’t focus at work. Things just seemed to go wrong with what I was working on. My laptop decided to reboot after an update and I was locked out for a while.

I had a chat with my manager pretending everything was all good. What is going on with me this week.

Let’s have some food!

The background

If you have landed on this blog and wondering what this is all about, check out my ‘Journey to 40: I don’t want to get old’ post.

In short, the thought of reaching 40 scares the hell out of me. This is all about my two year journey to 40 years old, and making some pretty big changes in my life along the way. I have put these changes into 4 big journey goals with the aim of reporting progress each week. These are:

healthy eating

Something I have struggled with for over a decade. A pretty big goal that I will break down into manageable chunks.

improve my Fitness

I'm not looking for perfection but really want to be fitter than my children. I wouldn't say no to a more defined body.

Drive my Professional development

I feel a little lost and need something to strive for in my work life.

Build an online presence

I have started this and would really like to dedicate some time to growing an online brand. Documenting my journey will help keep me on track as I reach that scary age milestone.

Come with me on my journey and I hope to inspire yours.

What has been going on this week?

By the time it got to the end of the day Friday I had no drive (discipline) to do my toning workout. So just slumped in front of the TV once the children were up to bed. Add to that, I ended up nibbling a little in the evening. I have been so good not doing that for the last few weeks.

Now, I didn’t go over my daily calorie intake because I generally have a smallish breakfast, and happen to have a small lunch that particular day. But that was still not good.

It actually felt pretty shit going to bed on Friday knowing that I was wobbling.

I feel really stressed at the moment. I feel like I need to make up more time at work because I am not focusing, thus being less productive. I feel like I need to do more exercise, to make up for the missed workout on Friday. And even though it was a small lapse in focus, I feel like I have gone backwards overall.

Why do I eat more when I am stressed!

I hadn’t really linked the two before. But thinking about it, I do seem to eat more, or want to comfort eat when I am stressed about things.

I haven’t done this in the previous three weeks because I have had some focus at work and at home (well it’s ‘all’ at home at the moment, but you get what I mean).

I read this article over the weekend around comfort eating. Or what doctors like to call Emotional eating. It is a very interesting read and I am hoping by recognising the signs around what is making me stressed and refocusing I can keep the habit at bay.

This is all about improving my overall wellbeing. Thinking about it, maybe I need to really incorporate that into my big 4 somehow. I think going forward I will adjust one of my goals. It’s now going to be Healthy Eating and Wellbeing. Maybe if I talk about things more it will help.

I think it time to dive into the goals for the week.

Healthy eating

Week 5 Calorie In-take Screenshot
This shows my latest calorie intake each day during Week 5 of my journey

I don’t think I need to go into any more detail on how my well-being has been this week. Needless to say it started well, dipped by the end of the working week, and picked up a little over the weekend.

Being a man I am not good on the feelings side of things. I am the sort of person who will bottle things up and put on the exterior facing happy/chilled view to everyone else. I don’t need to burden others with my silly little problems. Me being a little stressed at the end of the week, I am sure is nothing compared to others. So, like so many people I bottle it up and push it to the back of the cupboard.

Anyway, onto something a little more positive for the end of the week. The stats.

Lets look at my stats

Last Week
This week
Weight16st 13 lb / 107.4kg16st 11 lb / 106.4kg
Waist47in / 119.5cm46in / 117cm
Chest46.5in / 118cm46in / 117cm
Leg (thigh)24.3in / 61.5cm25.5in / 65cm
Arm (upper)Left bicep – 15.4in / 39cm

Right bicep – 15.75in / 40cm
Left bicep – 15in / 38cm

Right bicep – 15.4in / 39cm

I am still not convinced on the tape measurements. Losing a whole inch from my waist does see a little extreme. I am not going to read too much into that. Once I have enough data I will chart it out. What a geek I am.

Another 1kg lighter though!

I am super chuffed with that. That’s 3kg in as many weeks. Slow and steady is exactly what I am looking for right now. Hopefully in 5-6 weeks I will be very close to my next mini weight goal of 16 stone. I haven’t been that weight in 10 years!

If I were to sum up this goal, it would be keep doing what I am doing on the weight front. I really need to start thinking about how to change my positivity on what I am doing and not have those lose focus moments.

improve my fitness

I think this week on my fitness side followed my general mood for the week. Although I did get all three runs in, and the distance was more than I targeted in my mini-goal. Almost 2 miles instead of 1.75.

MonToning Exercises

Hard toning session.
Once again I struggled with the triceps dips. I couldn’t finish the last rep of the second set. My upper left arm is still a little sore. I thought with a couple of days rest it would be better.

TueRun 1

1.96 miles | 20:43 | Av Pace 10:33 | Calories burned: 375 | Conditions: Dark, On/Off Drizzle, windy
I increased my little circuit around the block to ‘almost’ 2 miles today. It was hard work but I pushed through.

WedToning Exercises

I completed the set today.
I think I am completing each exercise correctly. The resistance band I am using is 6.8kg/15lbs. Not sure if that is good, but reaching the minimum number of reps for each set is hard work.

ThuRun 2

1.96 miles | 20:53 | Av Pace 10:41 | 375 Calories burned | Conditions: Dark, Dry, Cold, After dinner
It felt good to start but then the left calf got really tight for the rest of the run. I actually wanted to walk half way round but kept going. If I am honest I probably didn’t stretch as much as I should have before the run.

FriToning Exercises

Oh Dear!!!
As you probably read above, today was my off the rails day. I should have done my toning workout but I had no desire to do anything. It didn’t help that the upper arm and now my calf was really tight.

SatRun 3

1.96 miles | 20:53 | Conditions: Day, Dry, Cold
So frustrating today. My phone died part way round the run so I only have 0.6 miles officially recorded. The route was the same all week so I will take my previous run as a guide for time. It was frustrating because the app says I was at a good average pace when it died.

SunRun or Toning Exercises

My rest day
I guess I could have done my toning workout today, given Friday seemed to be my non exercise day. But I didn’t!

Right, let’s see if I can get through next week completing all of my sessions for each day. I think I am going to keep to the 2 mile runs next week and then see if I can increase slightly. I might even reverse my route to mix it up a little.

driving my Professional development

I am beginning to sound a little like a broken record. Why can I not just put a little more time into this goal. I know this is only week 5 of a very long journey. But, I do feel like I am letting myself down. Right now I would rather sit down in front of the TV than pull together a plan for this. I don’t know why?

I think this is going to be one of my biggest challenges over the next two years.

Right let’s start small shall we. Get back into blocking 1 hour per day in my diary for professional development. On three of the days I want to progress some of the e-learning and the other two days I will focus on a new something else (I have an idea in mind).

Building an online presence

If you read my last installment you will have seen I said I have a few admin tasks that I could have completed this week. Yes, I didn’t quite get those done.

Although I did work through some new title slides/images for each weeks blog post. The same could be used as the title/intro slide on any YouTube video that I might create. I think they call it click-bait. Let me know what you think in the comments below.

I would like to try and get a DIY blog post out this month. I have all of the raw info for it so I think that is going to be my focus in the evenings this coming week.

I am still thinking of ideas of how I could create this blog series as a YouTube vlog series without showing my face. I am still nervous about telling the world (or at least those that might know me). While I am trying not to share personal information, I am trying to be more open about my feelings. As silly as it sounds, I think people might see me differently if they know it’s me.

One final task for this week in the world of online stuff is to start having a look at the meta data for each blog post. Search Engine Optimisation (SEO) is something that really anyone who would like to maintain a website or even YouTube channel needs to understand more of. Luckily for me, I have some of that knowledge stored away from a previous life. So it’s dust of the SEO techniques time.

What are my week 6 tasks/mini-goals?

I think after this mentally difficult week, I might be giving myself a few too many tasks. But let’s give it a go:

  • Continue with my calorie tracking and stay away from comfort snacking
  • Complete a full week of fitness sessions
  • Re block my 1 hour per day of professional development and actually do something in those hours
  • Draft a DIY blog post
  • Research some ideas of how I could create a semi interesting vlog without showing my face
  • Go back through my journey blogs and update some of the meta data and other SEO improvements.

My biggest mini-goal next week has got to be more positivity. If I can give myself a good pep talk, the rest of the mini-goals will come more easily.

Good luck with your goals next week and I will speak to you on the next one.

Image title from https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Sugar_in_Junk_Food_-_Doughnuts,_Biscuits,_Chocolate_and_Cake.jpg
Data images – screenshots from apps I am using to track my progress. App include MapMyRun / Weight Loss from NHS


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